my hair is in an a-line bob now, more or less as it's grown out.
2034 CG would tell me that when the man in NYC who I love, and have loved for years calls me and says "I miss you. I need you here. Come back. I'm going to come to san francisco. we're going to figure this out." (paraphrasing) - Don't tell him I'm not sure - then yes and I love him - but then go in to a weird depressive state because I am so torn and confused that I avoid my parents and spend a weekend drinking and drugging to avoid the emotional turmoil inside. And feel lost with no job, having to sell anything I can on ebay and craigslist to make a buck so that I can apply to graduate school in NYC (afford the $100-$150 application fees) without my parents knowing so that I can go back and be with him.
2034 CG would tell me now to have never fallen into such a tumultuous love. It's not Carrie and Mr. Big. He loves me, but it's not going to work. Stop working toward a futureless future. Focus on the here and now and all these new friends I have. All the party invites and fun I am having in this crazy party city (SF) where I go out all the time and don't have any worries of men... except every night I come home alone wanting him, missing him... and I should focus harder on getting a job. Leveraging 10-20 interviews a week, in-person or over the phone; hiring managers or recruiter is not enough. I need to reach out more, and farther.
I'd tell myself to not lead on that young man I re-met from high school whose heart I broke this week. I'd tell myself that San Fran is great. But, NYC is better.
So i'm figuring out how to get back to NYC.
That is what 2034 CG would tell 2014 CG