My parents are actually dying pretty soon I stopped asking why I love them so much SOOOOOOO much.
All I can say.
That's fucking pain and not the fun kind.
I cannot stand up to fate, no one can. That's how it goes. The powers that be don't ask. It's a matter of time like anything else.
I just need them to stay. I don't know what else to say ever. I just don't. I just. Fucking. Don't.
But I don't want favors I never did or asked for them at all.
I am just so deeply sad that that's true.
Sincerely,
A very concerned son.