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Fuck Bad Luck
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- Jan 27, 2010
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Hi Gamelive,
I saw the post created about me and all I can say is good job. I am someone who literally does not have a lot of meaning in forumville. I don't post a lot, I don't provide a lot of entertainment, and in all honesty I am just someone who takes things far too personally here. If after three years I am still a topic of any kind, I don't quite understand it all.
I have some friends here and some enemies. I enjoyed many discussions with many of you. When I look back at posts I made several years ago now I think of how foolish I was to make those posts. I was in a difficult time and to this day one of the few mistakes I made was revealing a glaring weakness to some who felt the need to pounce on it. I said to someone recently that the only reason I chose to make any posts was because I found a way I could vent. I would have been happy with ZERO replies.. so long as I could vent. I was offered free poker money (Amby and Raydog as well as a few others), freeplays, and even Amby offered to buy a Netflix membership... I accepted NOTHING because I was after nothing.
In the end by me doing what I did and posting what was happening in my life I created a situation where the enjoyment and entertainment I once had when visiting and posting forums quickly disappeared because I realized many people seek enjoyment out of things other than talking sports and bullshitting about life. I think the thing that I didn't realize and did not quite fully expect is that people would say things that did have a meaningful impact in a negative way... all of which is their own right.
So if you take enjoyment out of bringing a dark moment out into the open again... congratulations and good job. If you take joy out of laughing at a bad picture and a depressing time.. again great job. I too once found enjoyment out of laughing at my own jokes and various things said in a room alone.
Finally, whether anyone believed me or not. Whether everyone laughs at the posts or videos I posted is their own choice. The biggest mistake I ever made was going the one place I felt comfortable with at the time and posting what was impacting me more than anything had previously. I will not make public posts of any kind regarding my health so please do not ask. All I can say is that some people are better off than me and others are not.
Good to see some familiar faces around here.
I saw the post created about me and all I can say is good job. I am someone who literally does not have a lot of meaning in forumville. I don't post a lot, I don't provide a lot of entertainment, and in all honesty I am just someone who takes things far too personally here. If after three years I am still a topic of any kind, I don't quite understand it all.
I have some friends here and some enemies. I enjoyed many discussions with many of you. When I look back at posts I made several years ago now I think of how foolish I was to make those posts. I was in a difficult time and to this day one of the few mistakes I made was revealing a glaring weakness to some who felt the need to pounce on it. I said to someone recently that the only reason I chose to make any posts was because I found a way I could vent. I would have been happy with ZERO replies.. so long as I could vent. I was offered free poker money (Amby and Raydog as well as a few others), freeplays, and even Amby offered to buy a Netflix membership... I accepted NOTHING because I was after nothing.
In the end by me doing what I did and posting what was happening in my life I created a situation where the enjoyment and entertainment I once had when visiting and posting forums quickly disappeared because I realized many people seek enjoyment out of things other than talking sports and bullshitting about life. I think the thing that I didn't realize and did not quite fully expect is that people would say things that did have a meaningful impact in a negative way... all of which is their own right.
So if you take enjoyment out of bringing a dark moment out into the open again... congratulations and good job. If you take joy out of laughing at a bad picture and a depressing time.. again great job. I too once found enjoyment out of laughing at my own jokes and various things said in a room alone.
Finally, whether anyone believed me or not. Whether everyone laughs at the posts or videos I posted is their own choice. The biggest mistake I ever made was going the one place I felt comfortable with at the time and posting what was impacting me more than anything had previously. I will not make public posts of any kind regarding my health so please do not ask. All I can say is that some people are better off than me and others are not.
Good to see some familiar faces around here.
