Iag I know you're life has been on hold for a while and that it has been tough to witness your mother in her later state. I will say a prayer that your memories of the recent times hold in your mind much weaker then when your mothers mind and body were in a better state. Don't hold yourself any guilt if something close to relief has entered your mind as AD is as difficult for the loved ones as it is for the affected.
I think you owe yourself a few nights out on the town.
I'm assuming most of you have seen on FB, but moms journey is over as of Sunday, It was peaceful and I am doing well --for now anyway... I'll be back when things settle down. Miss u guys